Chapter 46~ As the Sun Peeks Through the Trees~

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Eventually everyone left. It was only me and Solstice sitting, still silent.

“I just got him back.” Solstice said, her voice was hoarse from not using it. “I had finally found him. I got him back… And he’s gone again. It’s like he’s trying to avoid me.”

“I doubt that. He talked about you a couple times. He loved you a lot.” I smile sadly, picking at the few blades of grass around me.

“He talked about you too. Gosh he talked about you.” I look over her with a confused look. “He thought you were an angel or something. It was gross.”

“Really, he talked about me?” My lip twitches upward. “You and Jethen probably talk about each other like that.”

“I dunno. Probably.” She shrugs, “I think me and Jethen as a survival strategy. We watch each other’s backs and protect each other. We just get each other, we make decisions together, nice and simple. That probably makes no sense.”

“Kinda.” I say, talking to Solstice is like talking to a best friend. Which I guess she is because, she’s Livy. But it’s different talking to her, like I’m talking to a different person. I get up, brushing off soil from my palms. “We should probably go.”

“Are you going to be ok?” Solstice asks, looking at me with such worry.

“Yup, he’ll get better soon.” I say, trying to give myself some confidence. I walk back to the medical building. As I walk back I see someone go into the Koda’s room. I run the rest of the way, who is this person. I burst into the room. The man turns to me.

“Hello, I was looking for you.” There’s nothing special about him, soldiers uniform, kind eyes. Who is he?

“Oh, ok.” I bite my lip, “Who are you?”

“That doesn’t matter.” I frown at this, “I’m just carrying a message. You’re wanted on the front. We need you.”

“Um, no thank you.” I try a smile but I know it’s not even close to convincing. My heart pounds and my fear builds in my throat. “I have to take care of Koda and stuff…”

“We took care of that. He has a nurse assigned to him. You’re truck leaves in twenty minutes.” The man’s voice was different than his eyes. His eyes showed sympathy, his voice had no emotion.

“I- I-” I have no words. I’m going to war. And I can’t stay here with Koda. My lip trembles slightly. I strengthen myself slightly, “Ok. Let me get my things.”

Solstice grabs my shoulder, squeezing it slightly.

“I’ll be back.”








Chapter 45~ As the Sun Peeks Through the Trees~

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“So what happened with you and Jethen?” I ask quietly. Remi bites her lower lip. I’m just trying to get my mind off Koda. And the war. And all the stuff.

“Nothing. It wasn’t anything in the first place. I mean-” She thought about her words. “I mean, I really liked him. But he’s occupied. Which I get, Solstice is like a goddess. She’s insanely pretty and like a super amazing fighter… Also, she has this awesome personality so you know. I’m no competition with that.”

“Aww, it’s ok.” I wrap my arm around her shoulder. “You’ll find someone amazing. Trust me.”

“So, what exactly is wrong with Koda?” She asked. In about half a second I feel like crying.

“I dunno.” I mumble. “Something happened in the battlefield and it seriously messed with his brain. It’s almost like his brain is stuck on one memory or something.”

“And we can’t help him?” She says.

“The nurse says there’s a slight chance his brain will get off the loop but it’s small and- and.” My bottom lip starts to tremble so I clamp my teeth down on it to make it stop. I make my voice stronger. “It’ll all work out… I think.”

At that very moment Jethen came in Solstice woke up and Koda said something. It wasn’t the fact that Koda said anything, he did that all the time. It was what he said. His words were strange. But totally relevant to what was going on. The sentence he had mumbled was: Don’t worry Flower, I won’t rip your petals. I swallowed hard.

“Koda?” I said, half of me hoping, the other half trying to kill the hope.

“Don’t worry Flower.” He said, making eye contact with me. Staring into my eyes. Something he hasn’t done since I found him here. “I’m right here.”

“You sure?” I asked, my voice breathy. “You’ve been gone for a while.”

“Flower…” He whispered. He was off still but maybe not as off. He reached up a hand and touched my hair. It was just a poof of orange, a wild nest. His was touch so soft that I barely felt it. But he gaze I felt. It was intense. Something else.

“Koda,” I said, suddenly wary. “What’s my name?”

“Flower.” He said. I bit my lip.

“No. No, it’s Poppy. Can you call me that?” I asked. But the second the words came out of my mouth. Koda’s mind had moved far away from here. He was back in his own world. I had lost him. I walked out of the room. I kicked myself. I shouldn’t have reprimanded him. I should’ve just went with it. I wanted to scream but I was already getting weird looks from the nurses. I half smiled at them then walked quickly outside. People watched me as I fumed outside so I decided to go somewhere else. I ran into the forest. I found a study tree and I starting punching the trunk. I threw all my anger at it. Screaming at it, telling it that it was unfair and unkind. I yelled until I started crying. I broke down and soon I was sitting in the roots of the tree, begging it for comfort. My knuckles were bloody and my hands hurt like heck. But I welcomed the pain. I deserved it. I hadn’t stopped Koda from going to war and now he was- He was so broken. Remi came up and sat with me. She did’t say anything. She just sat. Solstice came too. And finally Jethen. And we just sat. And the silence was welcomed.


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Koda, has changed. Something’s off about him. Every time he wakes up, he wakes up screaming. Then he becomes distant, asking me not to talk, asking me to leave the room. I always obey, hoping it’ll help. I just don’t know how to deal with this. I send a message to Jethen. Maybe he’ll know how to fix this. I get a reply a couple days later, he’s going to come over. When Koda sleeps, it’s restless. He tosses and turns. Then he’ll yell out warnings to people. People I can’t see. He’s been able to get up and walk around, if he uses crutches, but he often stops and stares off into space and doesn’t realize I’m still there until hours later. I try to help him but everything has fallen apart. I’m starting to fall apart too.


“Hello? Flower?” Jethen walks in, I smile when I see him. It’s good to see a similar face. “I’m here.”

“Thank you.” I walk up to him and he wraps me in a hug.

“No problem. Just hang in there, ok?” He pats me on the shoulder. I’m honestly surprised with Jethen, he’s taking something seriously. “Oh, and I brought you some presents.”

“Really?” I ask, doubtful. Two people walk in the room. Remi and Solstice. They wave. I smile. Solstice looks over at Koda, her face falls.

“What happened?” She asks, voice a whisper.

“I don’t know. But it was something bad. He’s a different person.” I rub my arms, trying to create some warmth in them. Koda’s asleep right now, I’m not sure when he’ll awake, probably soon though. This is the longest he’s slept peacefully. Remi walks up and gives my hand a squeeze. She gives me a sad smile. “He doesn’t even talk to me anymore.”

“Oh. Well. We’ll figure how to fix him.” Solstice’s bottom lip quivers, I walk up to her. She grabs my hand. She squeezes it, not a comforting squeeze but a ‘help me’ strangle. She’s trying not to cry. “I just got him back.”

Her words are raw, her voice cracking, she’s breaking on the inside. On the outside, her face doesn’t show any emotion, only the smallest quiver of her bottom lip. I look at Jethen, he’s in pain to. Remi hangs in the back, she never got to know Koda very well. Jethen wraps Solstice up in a hug, his strong arms covering her.

This is going to be hard on us. We’re going to suffer together.

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Koda wakes  a few hours after I came. He wakes up screaming. His eyes are wide and scared. I do my best to comfort him. I hold his hand tightly as he tries to get up. The nurse hurry in and starts to insert a needle in his hand but I stop her.

“Don’t drug him. I’ll quiet him.” I say, my voice weak. I used to think I was a strong independent female but after everything that keeps happening, I’m still just a scared ¬†little girl. The nurse nods and I smile weakly. Once she leaves I whisper gentle words into his ear, I tell him it’ll be fine. I tell him he should’ve listen to me. I tell him I need him. I tell him I’m sorry. Sorry for being stubborn. Sorry for everything.

Soon, he starts to calm down. He looks into my eyes.

“Poppy. You came,” He smiles and I grin back.

“Good thing too. You should’ve listened to be you big stupid.” Suddenly we’re kissing again but he pulls away suddenly. His eyes are big and fearful again. “What? What is it?”

“Sorry. Nothing.” He shakes his head. I grab his hand again.

“It’ll be ok. We’ll get your knee fixed up and then you can go back to fighting. You knows, maybe I’ll join you?” That last part surprises me, but maybe I will join him. I’m not sure yet.

“No.” He suddenly stiffens.


“You can’t go. I can’t go.” He whispers. I frown.

“How about we talk about this later, hm?” I smile. “Let’s get all this blood of you?”

“Ok. Sure.” He nods slowly, his mind on something else. I find a cleaner rag and dip it in some water. I wipe the blood off him and look at the back of his head. There’s a cut there that’s loosely bandaged. I think it’s where all the blood came from. I call the nurse in and she tells me to wait a few minutes. She finishes up her patient and comes into the room. She puts a cast on his knee and asks Koda a few questions. But he doesn’t really answer, he’s so distant, why?

“Koda? What’s wrong?” I whisper.

“Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.” He shakes his head, like he’s trying to get rid of the memory. “It’s just- just.”


“Stop talking. I need you to stop talking.” He words aren’t harsh, but they still hurt. I nod and sit back in the chair next to the bed. I just need to help him through this. Then we can figure out what to do next.

“Baby steps.” I say under my breath, “Baby steps.”

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I gallop with Champ, following the tracks left by the truck. I need to get him back. I need him to love me again, if he ever stopped. Champ starts to tire but I push him on. I can’t be caught by anyone, foxes or dogs. I need Koda to forgive me. Pictures of my first friend appear in my brain. Zellie, dead, hit with a flying piece of debris. I shake it out of my mind. Koda will still be alive, I’m going to save him. Or at least try to. I almost fall off so many times. For some reason I can’t flow with his pace. I try to calm my mind but it continues to race. Like my heart. I just have to follow these tracks.

I’m at the camp. I’m here. I find the man in charge and ask him where Koda is. He says the hospital. I almost start crying again. I run to the tent where the hold the injured, sick and dying. I find Koda there, lying on one of the beds. I inhale. Is he ok? Please let him be ok. My throat clenches and my lips tremble. Blood is everywhere. Why didn’t they clean it off him? I walk closer. Begging, praying, pleading. When I get to the bed, he’s not dead, but he’s not alive either. It was like when we were in that cell together. When he was so drugged he was in that in between state. I grab his hand, his bloody hand. I massage it, like I did in that cell. All we need is a miracle like Jethen to help us.

A nurse appears, a smile on her face, a stain on her dress. Blood everywhere.

“Can I help you?” She asks.

“Um. What happened?” My voice is hoarse, “To him I mean.”

“Ah, got caught in the cross fire. Bullet to the knee cap. And he hit his head, he hasn’t woken up yet so we’re not sure how bad the brain damage. And he won’t walk again. Not with his leg like that.” My eyes fill with tears, yet again. This isn’t fair! I just wanted one bit of happiness. Just a little bit. Why can’t I have that? “Did you know him?”

“Yea. Yea, I knew him.” I mutter, wishing those brown eyes of his would open. Wishing those lips would part and call me Flower once last time. Wishing his rough calloused hand would hold mine back. “Come back Koda. I love you, I’m here. I still love you. Please come back.”

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“What?” I lick my lips, “What’s so amazing?”

“They need me on the front!” He grins and I sit back down with a thud.

“They need you… They need you one the front?” I feel despair trying to push me under. “They need you to fight? I thought I thought you hated fighting?”

“No, I’m fighting for the right cause now, we’re the good guys, we’re going to bring justice to the land and peace to the people.”

“Wow man, did you get that from a poster?” Jethen smirks and I try not to let anyone to see my fear. My fear of losing Koda. “Good job man, for getting back in the whole fighting thing. I really don’t feel like doing that.”

“Really you seem like such a war guy to me… And no I got it from the little brochure they pass out at training.” He smiles a little and I snap.

“No. No. NO! You’re not leaving, you can’t leave me. You just can’t!” I jump up from my seat and yell, making the whole room stare. “We just got here and if you leave I’m going to be alone and- and.”

And I make a total fool of my self by breaking in tears. I sit back down, trying to control myself.

“Poppy, I have to do this.” He says, sitting next to me, “You don’t know what it means to me.”

“I thought I meant something to you.” I whisper. “I need you to stay. You’re all I have left.”

“I’m going to come back. You know that, we just have to win and then I can come back.”

“You know what? Whatever. Have fun. Make sure you don’t forget about me, I’ll be here. Probably making bandages just in case you blow off your leg or something! See ya later! Go be a super hero!” Bitterness surges through me, anger follows and soon I’m shaking with rage.

“No. Poppy, it’s not like that.” He looks hurt. Good. I want him to know that he’s making me bleed inside, that while he’s gone I will probably die without him. “I need to do this. You wouldn’t get it, you’re a girl.”

This is where he makes his fatal mistake.

“Right. Just a girl…Just a girl.” ¬†I muter. I walk away, my whole world has fallen apart in the course of five minutes, I just lost the most important person in the world to me. I storm into the room that me and Koda were sharing I grab all his stuff and throw it into a back. By the time I’m done someone’s at the door. “Come in.”

“Hey. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean that. I swear.” Koda stands in the door, an apology on his face.

“Sure you did. I’m just a girl, it was dumb to think I meant anything else to you.” I hand him the overstuffed bag. “Here’s all your stuff, have fun. Goodbye.”

Then I close the door in his face. Tears spilling down my face, I still love him, I don’t want him to go. I sit with my back against the door, sobbing. Remi was right, I suck with this whole relationship thing.


It’s late in the afternoon, Koda’s leaving. I walk outside, pretending that I’m going for a walk, that I don’t care. But I really do, I really care quite a lot. Maybe I’m being selfish? But I something’s holding me back from saying sorry. I don’t know what though. So I act like I don’t care, I’ll get over it soon. Koda runs up to me before I can get to the tree line. We’re at a different doorway than the one we found when we first got here.

“Look I already said I’m sorry. And I still love you. And you’re not just some girl. And I’m sorry I hurt you. But if you can’t forgive me, then fine. I can’t ask that of you. I just want to give you this.” He hands me an old blue pencil, it’s dented and dull and really small. “I gave it to my sister to remind her of me. Just don’t forget me. That’s all I ask. And your still my flower, and you were right. You look a lot prettier when you don’t look like an animal.”¬†

Before I have time answer, he runs off and hops into the truck with the buddies he’s going to war with, I clutch the pencil with my hands. I had bathed after getting to camp and I guess he did notice. I feel tears coming again so I walk into the tree line, where I watch the truck leave with the soldiers. I watch the truck leave with my world.¬†pretty-girl-with-very-sad-facial-expression-wide

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I help Remi with her job, guarding the door, to get my mind off Koda. Not that it works or anything. He’s still on my mind every second that I’m awake and while I’m asleep. If I do sleep, usually I’m up all night thinking about how stupid I am. I stop coming out of my room. I don’t eat, I just think about how I could’ve just said sorry and he would’ve forgiven me in less than two seconds.
“Hey. Poppy?” It’s Remi, “I have food for you. You’ve been in here a while, you coming out any time soon?”

“No.” I say, my voice hoarse from not using it,

“Gosh, I’m never going to fall in love. It seems way too risky. Good thing I took your advice.” I hear the relief in her voice, “Oh. I mean, anything I can do to help?”

“No.” I answer.

“Is that all your saying now?” She sighs.

“No.” I reply.

“Can you at least let me in?” She sounds exasperated so I open the door. “Thanks. Here’s your dinner. So, you at least want to try to be helpful around here. You could help with cooking, it would make these mashed potatoes way better. Why is it always mashed potatoes? That’s what we have every meal!”

“I’m no good at cooking.” I say sitting on my bed, playing with the blue pencil in my hand. Rubbing the dented spots, trying to wish a genie out of it.

“And she can talk!” Remi sits next to me, “Sorry, I kinda suck at this friend thing.”

“Nah, you just picked the wrong person to be friends with. And the wrong time.” I sigh.

“Well, tell me if I can help. I’ll still bring you food, whether you like it or not.” She walks out and I half heartedly say goodbye.


I sit up in my bed with an idea. I need to go to the front. I fling open the door and run down the hall, my boot clamping on the floor. I know exactly where I’m going. I walk down the halls until I find the Captain’s quarters, at least that’s what they’re called. Of course it’s not an actual captain, I guess you could call her the President of the Revolution but I dunno. I rap on the door quickly. I hear rustling then the door opens, here stand Miss Lilling, the person who basically runs the revolution. She looks at me with interest, not annoyance like I expected.

“Can I help you Poppy?” Her voice is smooth and her words carefully chosen.

“Send me to the front. Where Koda is.” My voice is firm and my words stern.

“No.” She says.

“Why not? I’ll fight. I just need to make up with Koda, it’s important.” Her mouth is in a thin line.

“Poppy, you’re going to die out there. You’re not built for war, you’ll be of more use here. Good night.” She closes the door before I can protest. I lick my lips and start to knock again but I pause. I know something better I can do. I go to that room Koda showed me, the armory. I grab a dart gun and a bunch of knives, avoiding the gaurds.¬†Then I grab my clothes and shove them in a bag. Then I steal some food from the kitchen, then I creep into the stables. I sigh, the stable is one of the most guarded¬†areas because it has a escape route. I grab the dart gun and blow it at the two front guards before they see me. They crumle to the floor and I smile in victory. The darts only knock them out for a few minutes. I need to move. I take out a few more as I go, never missing, never stopping. I work my way to Champ’s stall. He perks his ears when he sees me. I kiss him on the nose then we escape through the small tunnel that leads outwards. The truck that Koda was on left tracks in the snow and they are still there. I make The Champion of Troy goes his fastest and he does. We cover ground quickly. I’m getting closer to getting my world back.


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